shorter


underneath your misery,
i remain, i belong.
so if you think you've lost me:
you're wrong.


long time ago, time gone by,
i am no longer what you long for,
or at least, not for long.


shut my eyes and it's darker;
but you plan to keep me here longer.


much too long ago...


(c)2004 mai kozai

mai sharona.
december 5, 1984.
davis, california.
a sucker for flowers.

(--)
i
ii
iii
iv
a defeated you
a man concerned... lover
a portrait
a prepositional thought
abstraction
almost forgotten
attracting opposites
beauty kills
behing the wheel
breathing thought, part i
breathing thought, part ii
breathing thought, part iii
breathing thought, part iv
broken
choosing to love
cloud
confused about time
confusing simplicity
daring diffidence
dawnlight
dear
deserted carnival
defeating distance
difference in similarity
different view
dragonfly
enchantress
evanescent kiss
eyes
first day
five pendulums
foliage of dreams
geography
ghosts
hearing impaired<-- writer's pick
hello
hollow weather
hopelessly attached
humanitarian of the world
i love rain (post)
i remember
ignorance
ignorant happiness
imperfections: a.c.
inflating passion
insomnia
in the eye of the beholder
jasmine of my desire
john's #13
learning how to dance
lion heart
listen
mabel
me
mind games with p.e.k.
missing hands
more
musical life
narcolepsy
next to nothing
ocean of faith
one
out-of-body
out-of-focus
paperback novel
paralysis
perfection
questions and a thought
ray of light
reasons unnecessary
sacrifice
savior
self-negativety
shorter
significance
simplify
s-l-o-w-m-o-t-i-o-n
snow
stories of mr. nobody
subdued desire
summer: part i
surrealism
sweet autumn
the burial
the journey
the leaf
the ocean's treasure
the paintbrush
the right, the left
the second proposal
the song of the rain
the sunset's painting
the thirty-first
the truth in the lie
the war of mind and heart
time's hourglass
to a poet
understatement
untitled, july 28, 2003
untitled, december 10, 2003
untitled, february 16, 2004
unwanted visitor
upon winter's arrival
writer's block
you are a garden<-- writer's pick

12 times
september
october
november
december
january
february
march
april
may
june
unfinished due to poet's wishes

the flower garden #1
[set 1: first seven flowers]
sunflower
orchid
daisy
daffodil
iris
lilac
violet
[set2: next seven flowers]
elecampane
anemone
chrysanthemum
geranium
camellia
poppy
lunaria
[set 3: last seven flowers]
zinnia
sweetpea
snow in summer
begonia
bittersweet
pimpernel
star of bethlehem
[closing]
dandelion

tempos: a series
completed august 10, 2004 (japan time)
6-8
4-4
2-4
3-4
7-8
5-4
12-8
9-8

countermelodies
completed october 1, 2004
a dialogue's monologue
a monologue's dialogue

haikus
#1
#2
#3

(in chronological order)

edges
morning comes
love's enemy
tell me
bruised
at the bottom
saddened happiness
haunted heart
remember
deafening silence
orion
disease
brainwashed
not enough
fire
anticipation
regrets
between the lines
repeating failure
artificial happiness
hourglass
envious
incomplete
nemesis
serenade
untitled
horizon
gone
love's canto #1
wilted rose
lover's canto #2
driving into the sunset
untouchable
the battle
all over again
love is a teacher<-- ms. shirokawa's pick
vortex
stoic
confession
question (for gurlie)
wistful winter
untitled (ii)
keys
negai(japanese)
because
once upon
the unpredicted
the predicted
eyesight**
still
the messenger
longer
writing samples #1: the destruction of predicament | rain
writing samples #2: ugly | he wore solids
the cell
hollow heart
today
courage
happiness
spring will come
writing samples #3: necessary | a thousand words
writing exercise #4: #37 | #38
love's music
writing samples #5: sometimes | tomorrow
the great escape
solo
#2
hell
water
a fortiori
inaudible scream
old time's sake
unconscious
balance
a tempo
#12
the dream's reality
perspective
sleepless nights
#40
the giving tree
perplexity
prayer
jasmine
improvisation
spring
bubble

broken dreams - yeats
carpe diem - frost
inventar la verdad - villaurrutia
lady heguri - anonymous
love song - rilke
two loves - annensky
written... picture - byron
the definition of love - marvell

solitude (i) - cayanan

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